Tuesday, September 29, 2009

29 September 2009

7:15 PM – Burnt some Dittany of Crete today to do some visionary work. Interesting stuff. I went into a deep trance state a lot quicker than usual. Going to go and burn some more now with my dark mirror.


8:54 PM – Not much to report. I mixed some Syrian Jawee (Sweet Myrrh) and Frankincense with the Dittany, but whilst gazing into the mirror and inner voice asked me what I wanted to achieve. I said I wanted to enter in the Inner Landscapes through the mirror, and got the reply, but you don’t need the mirror to accomplish that, nor do you need it for visions, and so nothing will happen, and nothing did happen except me almost falling asleep. So, I will just stick to my usual methods.

Monday, September 28, 2009

Catch Up

I have neglected my blogs this weekend, bad me. So, here is a catch up:



Pretty much uneventful actually. I was struggling to keep my eyes open most of the day, so didn’t manage to do very much. (Well that was easy enough).



Went to the Nursery and got some bags of compost to fill up the seed bed I created outside the Work Room. Also got some Calendula seedlings and a Jasmine. Been wanting a Jasmine for ages, now I just need to get Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow, and then with those two and the Moonflowers, I should have an incredibly fragrant garden. We then went to the tattoo artist so my wife could get her new tat which was our daughter’s name on her wrist. In the afternoon I went to Outer Temple classes and I did a recap of meditation and breathing with them, so we did the Mother Breath, Toning and Tuning the Body and Pore Breathing through the hands. We ended with spontaneous singing which is always interesting. We tend to feel very shy when doing spontaneous singing as we don’t know what will or should come out of our mouths. Even when I am alone at home and doing it I feel somewhat inhibited because I wonder if the neighbours can hear me. Not everyone is like this, but some of us are. However, once you start spontaneous singing, just letting the sounds flow from you and letting Power lead you, all inhibitions disappear and it is very exhilarating. Oh, also ended up getting a few things for the Pan’s Gate shop, must update the site. Got a load of second hand books, some incense (which has been seen), a goblet, candle stick, and I also got a frame which takes two sheets of glass that slide in from one end. Was thinking of created a Goetic Mirror with the frame. The one piece of glass can be the dark mirror and then I can make sheets to slide in behind the mirror that have the Goetic Spirit seal on it. Might be an interesting project.



Planted the Jasmine and Calendula, filled the seed bed and planted the second batch of seeds. Got a few from the UK, planted them in seed trays a few weeks back and nothing happened. Always happens like this, the trays drain too quickly so seed trays are a no go with me. If I just through the seeds in the ground, they grow, otherwise, nada. So, because I had only used half the seeds, I planted the rest. Got Mandrake, Mugwort, Wolfsbane, Sweet Cicely and Spearmint and Peppermint. Hopefully these one’s will grow. I also sowed the Mugwort and Sweet Cicely around the garden to be sure. Put some in the compost soil, some in sandy soil and some in normal soil. Got some more Frankincense for the shop also.



Not a very exciting day. Got up, checked email, had a smoke or three and coffee and then went out to my Work Room and did my morning meditations. Spent the morning watching the rest of The Stand by Stephen King which I hired yesterday, and then did some work and been feeling nauseas the whole afternoon. I did buy a frame to make a magick mirror, so will be doing that over the next couple weeks. The method I am using is a little different to most. Instead of painting the backside of the glass (although I also have this style), I am placing a piece of black fabric inside which also flaps over to cover the mirror when not in use. The fabric itself will be soaked in a fluid condenser. All frames are plain and matt black to reduce any distractions. That reminds, will also be selling gold tincture and a simple fluid condenser for those interested in Frans Bardon’s work.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

24 September 2009

6:19 AM – Ah back on track, did my morning meditation, yichud* and taijiquan. Feeling much better now.


8:19 PM – Spent the afternoon at Emmarentia Dam with good friends and company. It’s amazing how exhausting sitting around in the sun doing nothing can really be though. Got back earlier, just been emailing and playing with the guinea pigs.


9:10 PM – Attempted a Merkavistic descent into Yesod again tonight. I go too deep into a trance state by the time I get there so I keep flitting in and out of consciousness and getting bombarded with visions, usually people and faces, although I did get an image of a wrought iron bracket of some kind that had a design of a thistle on it. Don’t know what it means but I also don’t want the visions any more, they are distracting. Although I must say, from the point of view of the visions I can hold on to an image for a longer period of time now. Previously it would be a case of faces flying in and out of my vision and no control over what I could watch, so I rarely remembered anything, only that I was seeing faces. Having coffee now to bring me back down to earth J Biggest problem with doing this is that I finish feeling a bit otherwise, but once I have my feet again I am wide awake so can’t sleep for a while.


*The yichud I do is called Taking on the Name, described in The Book of Self Creation by Jacobus G. Swart as such:


“…the use of a custom like “Taking on the Name” facilitates the “drawing down” (hamshachah) of a powerful current of “Divine Force” (Avir/Ruchaniyut) from the Source, the Eternal Living Spirit, from your “Infinite Point of ‘Is’-ness.” Each time you repeat the practice, a quantity of this Spiritual Force is drawn into your own being until the self begins to transform, and is liberated from anxieties, repressions, constraints, and ailment. When this transformation is achieved, one is able to communicate this Divine Power to anyone and anything you may encounter in your daily life.”


If you are in South Africa, Jacobus’ book can be found at http://rppublications.co.za otherwise go to http://stores.lulu.com/sangrealsodalitypress

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

23 September 2009

7:59 AM – Interesting morning. Apparently Donnette Davis who has set herself up as a literary agent has been talking behind my back and being rather unprofessional by saying that I am not trustworthy and my authors will not be able to sell internationally or get their books on Lulu.com. Very interesting indeed as I can take orders and post from South Africa, but have chosen to add the books to Lulu.com in order to reduce postage costs from SA for the international buyers – http://stores.lulu.com/rppublications which is specifically for my authors (I still have my own Lulu store for my own works which was started before Red Path Publications came into being – http://stores.lulu.com/the_red_path ). Apart from anything, Lulu is not all that important, it is merely a means to an end. So, Donnette Davis, who seems to have a hoard of time on her hands to play multiple Facebook applications, get your facts straight.


4:45 PM – On one of my Yahoo Groups, Book of Shadows and Grimoire Collection, we have a very interesting fellow, Bob the Minister. The first post he made after joining was to let everyone know that he is a Wiccan (or wiccian as he calls it) Minister who was ordained by the ULC (Universal Life Church). Now if anyone has heard of the ULC, it should raise some eyebrows. Although I do know some people who have been ordained by them and are in fact good upstanding folk who know their stuff, ULC poses a problem in that they ordain people they have never met or tested the knowledge of. It is for free, done via the internet and you are promised ordination in a few days if not before. What does this mean? Anyone, even the most irreligious person, can become an legally ordained minister or reverend. Do you see the problem?


Anyway, this Bob the Minister who claims to be Wiccan, states that there is only one God and Goddess and the Goddess is Mary…..yup, Mary Magdalene. Now I have no problem with people worshipping Mary as their Goddess, but not if they also proclaim to be Wiccan. Wicca is a somewhat formalized religion with certain tenets that need to be followed, and Mary as the Goddess does not fall into what Wicca is. A few of us on the group have asked him to explain himself but he seems to like ignoring those requests, but still posts comments to people and EVERY time he does, he has to mention he is a Minister. I don’t care if he is the Pope, if you are being questioned about the information you are sending out there, then you reply and you set your name straight. Oh, he also claims to know Ray Buckland and Ann Moura, so if they by any remote chance are reading this, do you know Bob the Minister, also going by the names Rev. Robert Boldman Wolf, Rev. Robert E. Boldman-Wolf and Dikkar. He teaches an internet class in Wicca, does handfastings and, as he calls them, Wiccanickings.


Probably still a bit more ranting and raving before we get back to our regular viewing, so bear with me.


8:47 PM – Well not much ritual again tonight, at least not the intended Merkavistic work I was intending to do. Neighbour’s music is too loud, most probably their end of term celebration. But at least I got to do some overtoning which I always enjoy.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

22 September 2009

3:36 PM – Crushed some chunks of Sweet Myrrh that I got in the package from Jillian in the UK. Man does it smell good. Will need to burn some later in ritual.


4:21 PM – Been sorting out some stuff in the Work Room. Have got some incense for sale at R15 per packet, as well as the Dittany of Crete for R9.95 per 10g (not easy to get in South Africa I must say, I tried every source I had and nothing, so I got 500g in stock), and I have also made Gold Tincture which is mentioned a lot in Franz Bardon’s work in regard to the fluid condensers…not sure what price to put on that, so will have to come back to.


Still need to finish the Meditation and Breath Workshop video. I keep recording sections and then having to redo them because of some or other foreign sound in the background (such as a plane or the ice-cream truck), but I at least have the advert done, so can upload that to YouTube soon.


8:23 PM – Well, ended up a friend’s house, just got back and am exhausted. Off to bed early, no ritual tonight.

Sunday, September 13, 2009


But whilst my pagan views may be lovely to me and mine,
They are not for all who do not walk the same line.
For if I speak of splendid copulations,
Will I be met with adverse stipulations?
What of the Queen and her Horned Consort?
Should I rephrase after some retort?

Ah, but as the life ebbs and flows,
As the egg and seed meet with the Cross,
How can I remove the blows,
That make so many form such terrible dross?

You see, I was born from womb,
Many times have I been here and there,
And if it were not for Nature's loom,
I would have remained with simple stare.

For from the womb of my mother,
Was I then born of another,
As the Devil and the Whore,
Created me from their Lore,
For if it were not for Divine Orgasm,
The Cosmos would be in a constant spasm.